I don’t know if it is that dark period during Winter, but I
have been in the doldrums. Unable to focus or concentrate. Unable to see the
path before me. In order to move forward, I have had to take a couple of steps
back to basics. Basics of faith, that is, and hold onto simple truths.
Why do they so easily slip away from us? Have we grown
over-educated and self-reliant and believe we have no need for God? Truly, I
think in our actions, this is the message we are delivering. We are so busy
succeeding and accomplishing that we make no time to sit before our Creator,
our Father, and meditate. We don’t pray and praise like we should.
Reading Oswald Chambers has reminded me of this. He says,
“Praising God is the ultimate end and aim of all we go through.”
“Whoever offers praise glorifies Me.”
I have suffered much. I have so many challenges and difficulties, they
never seem to end. Have I praised God through them? Have I considered that the
important thing is not how much I can accomplish for God, but what I have
allowed Him to do in me?
What have I allowed Him to do
in me? All of this beating and pounding of waves into my mortal flesh has its
purpose. I knew it was perfecting me, but I never stopped to consider that by
my response, my attitude, I could deny or accept His purpose for my suffering.
I am so full of complaint! Make no mistake! But does anything good come
out of these relentless trials at all?
There is a beautiful metaphor in the minor note. Chambers describes minor
keys as an angelic reunion connecting us again with all God has intended,
bringing us back into harmony. The discord of sin is broken. The minor note is
the note of repentance.
After contemplating this, I have been enlightened as to why songs in
minor chords are so appealing to me. They let my soul bleed the pain away,
slowly, calling me on. There is something soothing in this. Something I cannot
see. It is something going on in the powerful world of sound and motion.
The victory, in the end, is His. And all this overcoming is more than
just that from difficulties; it is the ability to be faithful to Him,
absolutely true, until the end. The bigger the battle, the bigger the prize.
In the moment, I have converted. I have gone from feeling like an
unaccomplished beggar, unable to be fruitful or victorious, coming before Him
with empty hands, to that of a champion. I see all He is able to do in me. That
I am allowing Him to buffet me, to finish His good work. I can honestly, and
joyously, give Him praise!